Hello blog readers!! I am sorry it has been so very long since I have updated my blog. I have no excuses really, just an epically long blog post that I hope will make up for it. I have debated for a while whether to include part of this post, but in the end I decided to go for it. I am sorry if it is too much of a downer, but sometimes that is life. (Oh boy I can ONLY IMAGINE what is going through my parents’ heads right now- don’t worry, all is fine!)
A week ago, Ali and I went to the grocery store to purchase the supplies for what was ultimately a very successful attempt at vegetable stir fry with Thai-peanut sauce (ahh… the perks of having my own kitchen). As we were leaving the store, Ali and I were commenting on what a successful grocery store trip it had been, and I was looking through my bag to make sure I had everything when…
“Oh my god, Alena.” Ali blurted out. “Oh my god, Alena.”
I looked up from my bag and followed her gaze to the point on which it had fixed. Across the street, in the open doorway of a small shop, a man stood, holding his wife by the collar of her Gomez, beating her with a closed fist. My mind went blank. I froze. I didn’t know what to do. And the man kept beating his wife, screaming at her in Luganda. I didn’t understand what he was saying, I imagine we didn’t learn those words in Luganda class, but it didn’t matter. All I could think was that I was witnessing domestic abuse before my eyes.
Fortunately, before I could even complete those thoughts, two Ugandan men on the street ran over to the shop door, one restraining the husband and the other leading away the crying wife.
Ali and I began to walk back to our house, and we didn’t say much on the walk back. Though I was relieved that the two men on the street had stopped the immediate abuse, all I could think about was what would happen when that wife returned to her home that night, what her life would be like. I knew the story wasn’t over, and I doubted it will have a happy ending.
I felt so powerless, but what could I have done? I knew that trying to stop the abuse myself would have been both incredibly dangerous and ultimately inefficacious. Certainly I am not strong enough to restrain an angry man, and I wouldn’t have wanted to end up on the other end of his fist. Also, as a muzungu, I don’t exactly get lost in the crowd, so intervening would have been unsafe.
Moreover, intervention by a muzungu probably would be a further source of embarrassment and might ultimately make things worse for the woman.
But still, what about the long run, the end of that woman’s story? Isn’t there a way to bring about a happier ending?
Domestic abuse in Uganda is a troubling thing. Whenever we meet with organizations that say they help women experiencing domestic abuse, I always ask what exactly the organization advises the woman to do, and what sort of resources exist for a woman in that situation. The answer I get is always that “we provide marital counseling to help the couple end the abuse in their relationship.” This boggles my mind. Marital counseling?? You really expect a woman to “work it out” with a man that is abusing her?? And what if counseling doesn’t work? Then what??
In America, if domestic abuse occurs, my sense is that most organizations would get the victim the heck out of that house, setting them up in some sort of shelter. However, the reality in Uganda is that such shelters do not exist. So what happens if a woman decides to leave?
She would likely only have claim to the possessions she is able to grab. Though women did gain the right to own land in the 1998 Land Act, most land is governed by traditional village mechanisms, rendering women with access to land only through male relatives. Thus, a woman who leaves her husband has no claim to the land they built and tended together.
She would also likely be the object of scorn, and could bring shame to her family, who might not take her back in. She might no longer be seen as marriageable.
So what does she do? She probably decides to stay with her husband, perhaps to attend counseling, if he’s willing, and try to “work it out” with the man that is abusing her.
Now, this certainly paints with a broad brush, and many courageous women do leave their husbands. But many societal forces are stacked against them. And in the face of such societal forces, it’s hard to see what one person can do.
This Friday, Ali and I went to spend Shabbat with the Abayudaya tribe in Eastern Uganda. The tribe originates with a Buganda military leader, Semei Kakungulu, who was converted to Christianity by British missionaries in 1880. As he began to study Christianity, he began to believe the lessons in the first 5 books of Moses (aka the Torah) were the truth. When Muslim immigrants told Kakungulu that only Jews follow only the Torah, he is believed to have said “Then we will be Jewish!”
After Kakungulu died in 1928, his followers divided into two groups: one reverted to Christianity and the other, the Abayudaya, became devoutly Jewish. The Abayudaya isolated themselves to avoid chronic persecution, which became its most intense under Idi Amin, who outlawed Jewish rituals and destroyed synagogues. During Amin’s reign, some 80–90% of the Abayudaya community converted to either Christianity or Islam to escape persecution. Only 300 Abaydaya remained committed to Judaism, worshipping in secret. This group named itself the “She’erit Yisrael,” the Remnant of Israel.
The most well known group of Abayudaya live in the village of Namanyoyi and practice Conservative Judaism. They are particularly renowned for their music, which has been nominated for a Grammy award. You can listen to a sample
here:Ali and I took a bus from Kampala at 3pm which got us into Mbale at 7pm. We were picked up by a very apologetic Rabbi Gershom who was breaking Shabbos, as he kept insisting, for the first time ever. Apparently, the Rabbi is running for a seat in Parliament and had to attend a primary election in which he received 100% of the vote (ahhh the Ugandan electoral system… keeping it classy). Unfortunately, we missed the singing because we arrived at the tail end of Kabbalat Shabbat, but the Rabbi welcomed us into his home where a few funny things happened:
First, the Rabbi’s adorable three-ish year old daughter immediately ran up to Ali and me and demanded we play with her. The first book she grabbed was “The Very Hungry Caterpillar,” a book that holds a central place in my childhood. I didn’t know that this was a universal thing.
Second, we met Isaac, a nephew of the Rabbi who was wearing a shirt that read “Nate’s Bar Mitzvah 1999.” As a brief aside, it is very common to see Ugandans wearing clothing, that clearly was given away by Americans. The Bar Mitzvah t-shirt worn by Isaac is one example, and I can so clearly imagine a Jewish kid in Uganda walking into a market and getting super excited to see a Bar Mitzvah t-shirt. Other notable examples include seeing a man wearing a pink sorority t-shirt and seeing so many corporate conference t-shirts that immediately went from conference to charity pile. I always half expect to see a shirt that I’ve given away here, but that has yet to occur.
Third, one of the American tourists visiting the village for Shabbat was from Kansas. When I said I was from Colorado she asked me if I had ever gone to summer camp. It turns out she went to Shwayder camp (Booo!) which is the rival summer camp to JCC Ranch Camp, where I attended/worked for 8 years. It is truly a small world indeed.
The Rabbi led Kiddush and then invited Ali and I to have dinner in his home, while the rest of the many Israeli and American tourists went back to the Guest House for dinner. Following dinner, we all sat around and discussed the D’var Torah and other teachings from the Torah. The Rabbi revealed that his personal favorite teaching, which I quote below:
-Oh Hashem! That we would forget for a moment that oppressing thought: That everything has been tried already, thousands upon thousands of time. That we would for a moment forget all this!... But when will this moment come? When will it be sought? When will it be found? Every generation asks this same question, and every generation answers with greater despair: "Who knows?"
-"But one truth I know! This response may be adequate for Mankind, even Klal Yisroel, in general. But an individual - can you the individual who sits and reads these simple lines respond any other way to my question "when?" than with the reply of Hillel: "If not now... when?!"
The Rabbi stated that he teaches this parsha with the lesson that people should not wait to take action “because today is the only day you control. Yesterday has passed and tomorrow is out of reach.”
I have thought a lot about his words the last couple of days. “If not now, when?” The question implores you to take action, commands you not to make excuses for delaying even a moment longer. I feel like I live a lot of my life for the future: I do research so that, someday, someone will learn from the research and implement change. I have come to Uganda to learn so that, someday, I can come back to Uganda to work towards a better life for the people who have given me so much in this country. However I realize that this is not a satisfactory answer to the Rabbi’s question, and I also realize that some of the people who have so touched my life during my time in Uganda won’t be here when someday finally rolls around.
The nature of my role in this country is something that I have struggled with, and I know the other students have struggled with as well. When we were conducting “research” on our rural homestays, one of the other students had a very adverse reaction to the whole process. She felt that “dropping in” on a community and disrupting their lives for a few days in the name of “research” that ultimately won’t benefit them was unethical.
By contrast, I was of the opinion that expecting that I, armed with nothing more than a notebook and a loosely defined research question, could change anyone’s life in three days was not only impossible, but ultimately hubristic. Moreover, is it my role as a Muzungu, an outsider in this community, to try and change anything? To try and play savior? The question is not only what I can do, but what I should do.
However, if to believe that I can change everything is the height of hubris, to resign myself to being powerless to affect change is the height of cowardice.
Saturday morning, Ali and I traveled to the nearby Orthodox community of the Putti village. The Putti Jewish community is far less well known than the Namanyoyi community, and is decidedly poorer as well. When we arrived, we were ushered into a one room mud synagogue, where a high school kid in an “Australia” t-shirt and impossibly shiny shoes led services, we were later told for the first time. He stood on a cement bimah, facing a wooden ark with paint chipping, as children in tattered clothes ran around the small room.
Following the services, the Rabbi told us of the community’s needs. Their only income used to come from selling Kippot and recording music, until a Jewish NGO came in and helped them set up a poultry farm to sell eggs. He implored us to help him find more donors, to help raise money for the community. This summer, Ali was involved in a drive to help raise money and school supplies to help the families of the Putti village send their children to school. The money hasn’t been brought to the community yet, but when it does, I know it will make a difference in the lives of the Putti people.
It is clear to me that waiting for “someday” is not good enough. “Someday,” the children of the Putti village will have already missed their chance to go to school. “Someday,” the AIDS victims I met in the Bwaise slums will have passed away if they don’t get the anti-retrovirals they so desperately need. “Someday,” the malnourished children running around my rural homestay will be adults with chronic health problems, if they even make it that far.
Yet, I know that some things must wait until someday. There will be no real help for victims of domestic abuse in this country until societal values change, which is a process that takes time. It is a sad reality of life that the woman whose nightmare I witnessed must continue to suffer until “someday” rolls around. However, as I pledged in one of my first posts, though these sad realities of life surround me every day, I must not accept them and grow complacent in the face of large mountains to climb. Instead, I must figure out what role I can play, and do what I can to bring about “someday” a few days sooner.
When I was much younger, I was shopping for a present for my mom’s birthday, or Mother’s Day, I cannot quite recall now, I stumbled upon a card with a message that I thought appropriate for my mom’s life, and as I am my mother’s daughter, it has become appropriate for mine as well.
Of course, it wasn’t until several years after I had lovingly painted it on a wooden plaque, which now hangs in my kitchen, that I learned that it was the Serenity Prayer, which is also the Alcoholics Anonymous motto. However, despite its notorious association, it remains one of my favorite quotes:
God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
It feels especially appropriate now, as I try to understand my role in this country now and in its future. I hope to eventually be able to wait for “someday” with serenity when necessary, but mostly, whenever humanly possible, to bring “someday” ever closer with courage. But, for now, I’ll just take the wisdom to know the difference.
The size of the circles around a location represent the amount of funding going to that location. You can see that some locations receive a lot of funding while others receive none.
Shows where within Uganda a certain donor (e.g the world bank) is active.
This view shows all active projects at a certain location, making duplication or gaps in aid apparent. 
